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Board Administrator Username: mjm Post Number: 4209 Registered: 11-1998 |
Honorable Mention the reviewer Frank Faust why relief he asked himself it wasn't better sometimes worse always always less so why the feeling of relief like another person a reviewer hovering above he looked back and down at himself how good it had been how hard he found it to speak what was in his head to say it aloud as though the sound of the words would turn everything into overblown reality or prove the falsehood every good thing magnified to impossible goodness every negative grown large to loom insurmountable how the unspoken could be ignored changed if need be hugged in warmth never aspired to never uttered aloud for fear he looked at her how she needed to hear him his thoughts his feelings his reassurance how he had tried sometimes to give her what she had needed the way it made him sweat shake in discomfort like a confrontation with the unformed part of himself so much angst for what was really so very little but beyond what he could find he looked again at the incomplete mental tally the good things the deficiencies his capacity to change the likelihood now of ever needing to this relief is an unsatisfying form but review remains an internal process ongoing ~ |
